October 2, 2008

Dear Friend,
Growing up I have learned many different things, but one has had a larger impact on my life than the others. Ok, where to start? … Well, my mom was pretty young when she had me. Young as in seventeen. And well of course you could assume it was unexpected. I guess that I never really thought of it as anything big while growing up except that my mom always looked way younger than all the other moms. It wasn’t until high school when I turned seventeen that it really started to make me think. Wow, what if I was pregnant right now? Seventeen years old, and a sophomore in high school? What would people think of me? How would I be treated? I couldn’t even start to think of what my family would do, or how they would react. My mom has always been a great mom. She has done so well for a single mom with two daughters. Yah, at times it was a little hard, but I think that the hard part was seeing my mom sad. The path that my dad took did not make life on us any easier. He screwed up big time, but I’m not going to go into details. My mom has gone through many obstacles in life, and has come out on top more than the bottom. Our family really has supported her from day one, and I think that that has had a lot to do with her success. She has always put my sister and I first, no matter what it has come down to. She started college, but was unable to finish because she had to take care of us. She has always been the mom that helped out with all the field trips and PTA meetings. She made sure that my sister and I were able to participate in everything that we could, soccer, basketball, swim team, volleyball, softball. You name it, we did it. My mom has sacrificed so much in her life, especially putting me through a private high school. Sometimes I treat her as though I am really ungrateful, but that’s the last thing that I would want her to think. Basically, through all of the reflection I have done the past five years, and all of the conversations that I have had with my mom, I have learned and been told that planning is key. I have learned that having a plan in life puts you one step ahead of the game. Yah, some things happen unexpected, but if it is preventable then why not prevent it? Personally, I would rather make life easier for myself than harder.

Dear Friend,
Last year, one of my really close friends experienced a loss of a really close guy friend. They had known each other since elementary school and were together quiet often. His death was very random and was due to a tumor in his brain. My friend was so upset, she stopped eating and coming to school, and I didn’t know what to do about it. I talked to her on the phone, but every time she would break down and cry, and it wasn’t making the situation anything better. I thought that if I took her out in public to do something fun that it would take him off of her mind for a little while. Boy was I wrong. She played along with it and definitely fooled me. It looked like she was having an alright time, which made me feel like I had done the right thing. Well, for the next two weeks she would not answer any of my phone calls or any of my texts. I was really mad and hurt because I was trying to reach out to her but she just kept ignoring me. Well, finally I received about a really long text message from her explaining why she hadn’t been talking to me. She said that it was so rude of me to take her out, and that it had made it seem like I didn’t care about what had just happened. I guess that all she had wanted was to spend time with me and for me to just be a shoulder to lean on. When I look back at it, when I took her out I did try to act like everything was perfect even though it was far from it. And that was my mistake. From this I have learned to be more considerate in the way that I deal with big things like this. I never looked at it from her point of view, and that’s where I went wrong.


Infinite:
To feel infinite is to feel like your floating on a cloud. Like time has stopped, but you’re still moving. Infinite is when you are with somebody close to you, whether it be your best friend, or your boyfriend, in my case he is both. It is when you two are driving in the car at three in the morning, with the music up and the windows down, nothing to worry about, right in the heart of downtown. There was not another car in sight, just us. It was like the whole city was ours. We cruised around with smiles on our faces, so in love you would think that we’re crazy. We sang at the tops of our voices as we drove under the street lights, the feeling was unexplainable. Everybody has their own infinite moment, and this is mine.