September 17th, 2008

Dear Friend,

I am writing to you because my whole life is beginning to change. It's just so crazy how time flys by so fast. i remeber how when i was younger the time would not move, the years always went by so slow. Now it's like "wow!" I'm eighteen, almost nineteen and I am scared. Scared of growing up in a way. I had always wished that i was older and now that I am it is sort of scary. I mean don't get me wrong, it is very exciting and fun too. But, when it comes down to it I can't lie... I am scared. I just need to know that there are other people out there who have experienced this feeling before. The feeling of being all on your own. I think that i scare myself into things sometimes. Does that make sense? I think that if you tell yourself something too many times you definately start to believe in it. Last night I was out, downtown, with my boyfriend. Yah, we might have been having too much fun, but there was that one moment that has left me smiling. It was about 3:30 in the morning and we were just cruzing around. Picture this.. It's tuesday night, well middle of the night, and there is not a single car on the road. Not even a person to be seen. We had the windows all the way down and our music playing so loud, but not in a bad way, just the kind of way that sort of makes you zone out. The kind of zone where its just you and that one that you love,and the rest of the world just stops. My boyfriend and I have been together for a little over two years now, and we are crazily in love. I'm telling you, it is the real thing. So here are the two of us just so full of all these emotions looking up from the car, into the sky above the city. It was so beautiful. I looked at him and said the city is ours. And for that moment it was. That moment by far has been the best of my life. That is what living life is all about. I guess that the only way to know what I'm talking about is to have been there yourself. Anyways, that sort of shows the fun side of my life, not so much the responsibilities of it. With responsibiility comes the scare. You of all people would understand that because you grew up at such a young age and now your living life. So this is my life. And i want you to know that I am scared about living it, but so excited at the same time. Sometimes i feel like a confused person. I think about things into depth to much. I will never be able to get over how crazy life really is. Aside of the laws and the government, in reality we have the power in our hand and if we want to do something we can do it. The reason I wrote this letter is because I have been awakend to a whole other side of life and I am so excited yet confused.

Love always,
Rain