December 8, 2008

Dear Friend,

I read a book for my English class called “The Perks of Being a Wallflower”. I really liked the part of the book that took place around Christmas. It was when Charlie was a part of the Secret Santa. I enjoyed reading about all the presents that he received leading up to the party, and hearing his reaction to the gifts. It was cute and funny. I also liked the scene when everybody was playing truth or dare and Charlie kept on choosing dares. I especially liked the part of that scene when he was dared to kiss the prettiest girl in the room and he kissed Sam. It was a shock, but it made me laugh. It was also another cute seen. It’s amusing how Charlie really likes Sam that much and to prove his point would kiss her in front of his “girlfriend”.

When Charlie’s sister told him that she was pregnant it was the last thing that he probably expected her to say. She ended up opening up to Charlie and telling him that she is going to get an abortion with no hesitation. From this scene I learned that many hard times and situations arise in life, but no matter how low or bad you feel there is always another person out there that is experiencing the same if not worse things.

The ending of the book was sort of crazy. I really didn’t see it coming. How could Charlie love his aunt so much after what she did to him. For all of those years Charlie acted the way he did because he was molested by the one person that seemed to be the most important in his life. What a shock. It made me sort of sad and mad at the same time. However, the book was great. It was a down to earth book that anybody could get in to. I would definitely recommend it to another person.

Thanks for all of your time,
Rain

November 18, 2008

Dear Friend,





I feel like I always have a good week followed by a bad week. Almost as if it is impossible to have more than one great week in a row. Last week was going great. School went perfect that week, I only worked one day, i hung out with my friends every night, and my boyfriend and i didn't disagree over anything. This week has already started out pretty tough. I found out some pretty scary news, I'd rather not share. Let's just say that it is life changing and yah. My boyfriend and i have argued about the littlest things that really shouldn't matter, I have a huge project due for school this week that i thought i had a whole other week to do, and i was sick all weekend. Maybe things will start to mellow out soon, at least i hope theydo.

Last year, my best friend started doing drugs. Not just smoking pot, but using cocaine. I didn't really know how to react about it. We had been close friends for over four years when she told me about it. Her behaviors changed, our relationship changed, her whole persona changed. It really upset me to see her like this. I sat her down many times throughout the year and had heart to heart conversations with he. We would cry and we would laugh, bt Ineverdid get through to her. The last conversation that we had I told her that she needed to reprioritize her life and really see what is important to her and who cares about her. Bascically, she told me to F**K off and that was that. This definately was not a bonding moment over a tragedy, but it definately could have been if things went differently. I wonder sometimes how she is doing and if her lifestyle is still the same.

My dad was in jail for eight years of my life. They were years when a dad could really be nice to have. He missed my life through middle school and got out at the beginning of my last year of high school. It was tough sometimes. I always wanted someone to give my date a tough time when he showed up to take me out. Or to be there at homecoming and at all of my basketball and soccer games. He would always write me letters, but i never would respond because of all the anger i had. The way that i dealt with it was by writing letters to him of how i felt, but never sending them. I would have a huge drawer full of random letters that i would write everytime that i missed him or was mad at him. The letters definately helped to get things off of my chest. But now that i look back i chold have just sent them, because i know that it hurt him not recieving any letters back from me.

Sincerely,
Rain

November 6, 2008

Dear Friend,
I made this CD for you….. I hope that you like it as much as I think that you will.

1. Pussycat Dolls – “ Stick With You”
2. Fabulous featuring Tamia – “So into You”
3. Brian McNight - “Your Like a Dream Come True”
4. Jennifer Lopez – “ Hold You Down”
5. San Quinn – “San Francisco Anthem”
6. Wayne Wonder – “No Letting Go”
7. India Arie – “Beautiful Surprise”
8. India Arie – “The Truth”
9. Lauryen Hill- “ Can’t Take My Eyes Off of You”
10. Pussycat Dolls – “Stick With You”

The first and the last song are the same because it was the very first ringtone that I put on my phone after we met. You used to call my phone while I was sitting right next to you just to here that song. I hope that it helps you to remember all of the good times that we have had and all of the good times to come. Whenever you are alone, or feel like everything is wrong I hope that you listen to this CD and smile your worries away.

Love,
Rain



Dear Friend,
Let me tell you a little bit about my family…

· My sister is more rebellious than anyone.
· My mom puts her daughters before herself.
· My dad tries to be more of a friend.
· My grandpa is the wisest and most loving man that you will ever meet.
· My grandma is a very sweet little lady.

Sincerly,
Rain

October 28,2008

Dear Friend,



Have i ever told you how beautiful He is? It would be impossible to describe, but I'll try. I'm not sure if this will make sense...It's almost like that feeling that you get on one of those days when everything is going wrong, and then one good thing happens that makes up for all the bad. Well, He's that good thing. His voice lights up a room, and he really knows how to make people smile. Just knowing that He is in your presence puts you at ease. His compassion for his family is so deep and way that he plays with His nephews is so genuine. Just seeing him smile fills me with butterflies, and even if your mad you can't help but smile back. When you look into his eyes you can see the truth. He's not a liar or insincere. He is a well-rounded man that leaves an impression everywhere he goes.



Sincerely,

Rain





Dear Friend,

Have you already lived your "glory days"? I have. You see, I have played soccer all my life. I would practice everyday, run a couple miles at every workout, i was incredibly fit. My entire life I was captain of every team that I had ever played on. It felt good, like people looked up to me. The postion that I played was goal keeper. I would never trade that position for the world. You'll never understand the rush that i would get when i would make an incredible save. I was number one in our club for the keepers. We traveled all around the U.S. to be scouted and wow was it exciting. It was so nerve racking everytime a scout would call me and tell me that they were coming to watch me play. And it was even more nerve racking when they would fly into Denver just to watch a game. I recieved three differnt full ride scholarships and four partial scholarships from universities and private colleges. My dream of playing through college ended after i tore my rotator cuff the summer before freshman year of college started. it was very depressing, especially since i didn't have any schools in mind that were not for soccer. And that's how I ended up staying in state at CU Denver. Well, i guess that those were my "glory days".



Sincerely.

Rain

Dear Friend,

How do you celebrate your holidays? Christmas with my famil is really fun, until everyone gets to eating and talking. Every year me, my sister, my mom, all of my cousins, all of my aunts and uncles, and all of my great aunts and uncles come together at my grandpa's house. After everyone has gotten there the entire living room if full of presents. We all have a big homemade breakfast and then start tearing away at the presents. Then we all hangout and watch christmas movies in different rooms. Christmas with my family is an all day event. After a while we start eating dinner that my grandpa and his sisters cook. A bunch of italian food! and again after that everybody lays around, and then something always goes wrong. I swear, along with a couple other family members that my uncle starts all of the fights taht take place in that house, no matter when they are. he is such an opinionated person, and boy does he love love to speak his mind. I disagrees with everything just to create conflict it seems. My uncle is definately the grinch towards the end of the day, but he always comes around and apologizes.

Sincerely,

Rain

October 2, 2008

Dear Friend,
Growing up I have learned many different things, but one has had a larger impact on my life than the others. Ok, where to start? … Well, my mom was pretty young when she had me. Young as in seventeen. And well of course you could assume it was unexpected. I guess that I never really thought of it as anything big while growing up except that my mom always looked way younger than all the other moms. It wasn’t until high school when I turned seventeen that it really started to make me think. Wow, what if I was pregnant right now? Seventeen years old, and a sophomore in high school? What would people think of me? How would I be treated? I couldn’t even start to think of what my family would do, or how they would react. My mom has always been a great mom. She has done so well for a single mom with two daughters. Yah, at times it was a little hard, but I think that the hard part was seeing my mom sad. The path that my dad took did not make life on us any easier. He screwed up big time, but I’m not going to go into details. My mom has gone through many obstacles in life, and has come out on top more than the bottom. Our family really has supported her from day one, and I think that that has had a lot to do with her success. She has always put my sister and I first, no matter what it has come down to. She started college, but was unable to finish because she had to take care of us. She has always been the mom that helped out with all the field trips and PTA meetings. She made sure that my sister and I were able to participate in everything that we could, soccer, basketball, swim team, volleyball, softball. You name it, we did it. My mom has sacrificed so much in her life, especially putting me through a private high school. Sometimes I treat her as though I am really ungrateful, but that’s the last thing that I would want her to think. Basically, through all of the reflection I have done the past five years, and all of the conversations that I have had with my mom, I have learned and been told that planning is key. I have learned that having a plan in life puts you one step ahead of the game. Yah, some things happen unexpected, but if it is preventable then why not prevent it? Personally, I would rather make life easier for myself than harder.

Dear Friend,
Last year, one of my really close friends experienced a loss of a really close guy friend. They had known each other since elementary school and were together quiet often. His death was very random and was due to a tumor in his brain. My friend was so upset, she stopped eating and coming to school, and I didn’t know what to do about it. I talked to her on the phone, but every time she would break down and cry, and it wasn’t making the situation anything better. I thought that if I took her out in public to do something fun that it would take him off of her mind for a little while. Boy was I wrong. She played along with it and definitely fooled me. It looked like she was having an alright time, which made me feel like I had done the right thing. Well, for the next two weeks she would not answer any of my phone calls or any of my texts. I was really mad and hurt because I was trying to reach out to her but she just kept ignoring me. Well, finally I received about a really long text message from her explaining why she hadn’t been talking to me. She said that it was so rude of me to take her out, and that it had made it seem like I didn’t care about what had just happened. I guess that all she had wanted was to spend time with me and for me to just be a shoulder to lean on. When I look back at it, when I took her out I did try to act like everything was perfect even though it was far from it. And that was my mistake. From this I have learned to be more considerate in the way that I deal with big things like this. I never looked at it from her point of view, and that’s where I went wrong.


Infinite:
To feel infinite is to feel like your floating on a cloud. Like time has stopped, but you’re still moving. Infinite is when you are with somebody close to you, whether it be your best friend, or your boyfriend, in my case he is both. It is when you two are driving in the car at three in the morning, with the music up and the windows down, nothing to worry about, right in the heart of downtown. There was not another car in sight, just us. It was like the whole city was ours. We cruised around with smiles on our faces, so in love you would think that we’re crazy. We sang at the tops of our voices as we drove under the street lights, the feeling was unexplainable. Everybody has their own infinite moment, and this is mine.

September 17th, 2008

Dear Friend,

I am writing to you because my whole life is beginning to change. It's just so crazy how time flys by so fast. i remeber how when i was younger the time would not move, the years always went by so slow. Now it's like "wow!" I'm eighteen, almost nineteen and I am scared. Scared of growing up in a way. I had always wished that i was older and now that I am it is sort of scary. I mean don't get me wrong, it is very exciting and fun too. But, when it comes down to it I can't lie... I am scared. I just need to know that there are other people out there who have experienced this feeling before. The feeling of being all on your own. I think that i scare myself into things sometimes. Does that make sense? I think that if you tell yourself something too many times you definately start to believe in it. Last night I was out, downtown, with my boyfriend. Yah, we might have been having too much fun, but there was that one moment that has left me smiling. It was about 3:30 in the morning and we were just cruzing around. Picture this.. It's tuesday night, well middle of the night, and there is not a single car on the road. Not even a person to be seen. We had the windows all the way down and our music playing so loud, but not in a bad way, just the kind of way that sort of makes you zone out. The kind of zone where its just you and that one that you love,and the rest of the world just stops. My boyfriend and I have been together for a little over two years now, and we are crazily in love. I'm telling you, it is the real thing. So here are the two of us just so full of all these emotions looking up from the car, into the sky above the city. It was so beautiful. I looked at him and said the city is ours. And for that moment it was. That moment by far has been the best of my life. That is what living life is all about. I guess that the only way to know what I'm talking about is to have been there yourself. Anyways, that sort of shows the fun side of my life, not so much the responsibilities of it. With responsibiility comes the scare. You of all people would understand that because you grew up at such a young age and now your living life. So this is my life. And i want you to know that I am scared about living it, but so excited at the same time. Sometimes i feel like a confused person. I think about things into depth to much. I will never be able to get over how crazy life really is. Aside of the laws and the government, in reality we have the power in our hand and if we want to do something we can do it. The reason I wrote this letter is because I have been awakend to a whole other side of life and I am so excited yet confused.

Love always,
Rain